There are two things on my mind that I would like to write about... I am not sure I will be able to do it, though.

I know that this blog has served as my diary. For one reason or another, I have chosen this space to open up, and write down very personal thoughts and feelings, mixed up with short snippets from my globe-trotting state of life and occasional entries about my favorite creatures: animals. Sometimes I speak about my professional life. Today, I could do all of the above.

I am in Washington DC. One more time. Another meeting. Loved ones around. Tension--positive and negative. This has been one hell of a roller coaster of a year. So many things have happened. Many of them exciting. Many of them frustrating. This meeting has the potential to be all of that. I am experiencing it as a soothing process. I am actually feeling better as it goes on. I am feeling a bit more connected. Belonging. Part of.

I ask myself what is going wrong with my professional life... Why is working here such an insurmountable challenge? Why do I feel so much conflict? Why do I feel unhappy? Unappreciated? I clearly work too much. I clearly waste time on things that should not consume so many hours. While that is annoying, it is not the answer to the main question.

I am 1000% committed to this work, and love what I do. Why am I unhappy? What is it, that is not going in the right direction? Any suggestions shall be appreciated...